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It’s a long, fun story, this one.
This album was birthed for a couple reasons- mainly because I knew that my songs needed a home. As I got deeper into creating the album, I recognized that it told a story of my own growth over the past 10 years of coming into my voice, my creativity, & my life.
I was an avid singer/screamer from the womb, and a magical little girl who loved to sing- but as time went on (without getting into detail), my voice slowly started to shut down, and the ability to be myself started to be more an idea than reality. By my mid-teens I was full-on depressed, disconnected, and using food to shove down any emotion that needed expressing. People close to me knew I loved to sing when I was younger, but if someone asked me to perform, my hands would shake, I’d get sweaty, my throat would tighten up- and intense fear would flood my system. I couldn’t even sing alone- I had such incredible fear and self-judgement that always kept me quiet. (Song: Coming Home)
By 23, it was apparent something wasn’t right. My weight had steadily progressed to 345 pounds (Song: Body.) I knew I needed a change. Through therapy, guidance, self-love, meditation, therapy, countless healers, and more therapy (lol), I was able to start exploring the sh*t that had kept me shut down, silent, and scared. A friend, Japa, heard me singing quietly and guided me into sharing my voice with her. Then, in a meditation led by Ali, I received my first “download”- which was that I had repressed my voice and emotions by pushing them down with food, and that in order to heal I had to sing (Song: Year of the Horse, You Have A Choice).
It’s been 5 years since then and I’ve not stopped singing.
Since then, I’ve been running my own business, ProcessSING, for 2 years, dedicated to helping people open their voices and explore the trauma behind being seen and heard. I now perform consistently with awesome musicians, and love the heck outta my life. Many of these songs were written to myself as prayers and reminders of how I *want* to be, and how through music have created the life I wish to live. Thank you for co-creating this live with me and walking on this path!
<3<3<3 Lauren Arrow
July 19, 2016 Lagunitas, California
released August 8, 2016
All songs written and performed by Lauren Arrow
Produced, Mixed and Recorded by Christopher Krotky
@ SoundWire Studios , Fairfax CA 2016
Mastered by Shelly Stephens at Chicago Mastering
Album Artwork by PaulLatinoArtAndDesign.com
Contact info: www.LaurenArrow.com
Lauren Arrow : Pianos, Vocals, Baritone Ukulele, Guitar, Hoop Drum
Christopher Krotky - Pianos, Keyboards , Percussion , Drums, Guitars, Basses, Strings
Michael Arrow: Drums on Body, Year of the Horse & Coming Home
Todd Boston: Mandolin, Guitars, Charango on Ashes
Ila Cantor: Upright Bass on Somehowww & Conspirator
Tiana Cicco: Vocals on Body, Year of the Horse, Unfolding, Coming Home
Alisa Healey: Harp and vocals on Unfolding
Annie May: Violin on Carrots & Peas, vocals on Ashes
Ali Maya: Vocals on Ashes
Phil Rodrigues - Horns on Body & You Have A Choice
Rick Roth: Organ on Body, Year of the Horse & Coming Home
Kim Sabina: Vocals on Body, Year of the Horse & Coming Home
Melita Silberstein: Vocals on Ashes
Gabriel Wheaton - Violin on You Have A Choice
To my PARENTS! Holy shoot! Clearly I wouldn't be here without their productive and tireless teamwork in creating me, but I am forever grateful for their deep encouragement of my musical nature. Your belief and support created a strong foundation for my creative expression. To my mother: my personal cheerleader/momager: Thank you for the back scratches, the shoulder Kleenex, the late night texts about updating my website. Thank you for always believing in me. Pops- you give life to my music through your groovy drumbeats. You taught me about musical improvisation and finding the flow and jumping on the train. My little brother Sammy for being my first fan. I feel like you were the first one to be excited about my music and make me feel like my voice was beautiful and that I had something to share. Thanks for being the bestest little/big brother a girl could have! To my grandmothers: Sally for hearing me belt for the first time and getting her socks knocked off! Thank you for being the woman who kickstarted my Kickstarter. You, dear reader, are reading this page because of her contribution and support. And to Gramma Trude- my "80 years and over" manager who always gets me the hottest gigs at the JCC and retirement homes and 90th birthday parties.
To all relatives- Arrows, Sears, Seymours, Ginsbergs & more: I LOVE YOU!
Thank you to all my Kickstarter funders! In this case, I *literally* couldn’t have done it without you.
I have a lot of people to thank that have ushered me on this path of self discovery through singing. So many angels and guides and helpers I'd probably need a couple pages. Firstly: to Adva Mey, my first guide who could see my light even when I thought I had thoroughly extinguished it. Japa Kaur- oh my singing Goddess guide... I never never never sung in front of people until this gem. You were the safest person I had ever met and you breathed encouragement into me. To Belinda for your guidance, To Maria Owl Gutierrez who watered my little seedling and supported me to grow and flourish… And to Anton- During a routine what-the-hell-am-I-doing-with-my-life freakout, you simply asked me "well, what the hell DO you want to do?!" Those words were the exact thing I needed to hear to get my booty in gear and set the stage in motion for singing the song. And to Grandmother Aya and Ali: it was in your meditation circle that I first recognized the fear I had around singing in public and being heard by others, and I understood that in order to heal my body that I had spent so much time using food to repress emotions that I HAD to open my voice and sing and LET IT OUT! You told me that once I started doing that I would heal myself and then others. It's become true, and I haven't stopped singing from that point. To Bread & Roses, the most beautiful Nonprofit that brings hope, healing and live music to institutions throughout the Bay: Thank you! Your mission is my mission. Thank you for providing the spring-board for me to dive into my life.
To my sister Arielle who said "you should start Womens Singing Circles" and my brother Daniel who made it safe and fun to improvise... Elise- my bestie since I was 5; you know me better than anyone. Thanks for showing up with me in this life. Hill, thanks for holding me & your love and support for the two years it took to make the album. For naked Bolinas breakfasts and your muse-ical ways <3 To Cat Maness, my therapist for the last 5 years (holy shoot!) You have been with me along this path of unfolding and blossoming. And my whole community of support and love... Tiana, See, Alisa, Mel, David A & M, Nick, Colleinipants, Casa Olema, Rachel, Rodie, Jennaia, Iuybe, Rose, Forest. And my new family emerging: Ali, Robbie, Ila, Melita, Annie, Tara- I create the most beautiful heartwarming/soul filling music with you!!! Thank you for your blessSINGS!
Deeeeeep gratitude to Jennaia for creating HeartSpace where the singing groups were born- you were the sun that shown down on my little sproutling, guiding me towards the light & Sefora for creating Terras Temple to give the perfect Magickal space for singing... AND MY LADIES! My ExpressSING & ProcessSING ladies! My angels! Thank you for trusting me to help guide you into opening your voice. You help give my life purpose and meaning. And to Mr. Krotkey who worked with me tirelessly to create this album that was only supposed to take a couple months and took a couple years. You are a musical genius. Thank you for creating magic with me and being midwife to this album. You rock, rock.
And to my guides, God, Goddess, Soul, Self, Source, Ancestors, Angels, Muses & Mother Earth: Thank you for this breath that turns into song. Thank you for this heart that keeps breaking open more and more and more to let all your light in. Thank you for the tough love and the lessons. Thank you for letting me hear you and teaching me to listen. Thank you for this life. Ahoy.