It's Happening!

by Lauren Arrow

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It’s a long, fun story, this one.

This album was birthed for a couple reasons- mainly because I knew that my songs needed a home. As I got deeper into creating the album, I recognized that it told a story of my own growth over the past 10 years of coming into my voice, my creativity, & my life.

I was an avid singer/screamer from the womb, and a magical little girl who loved to sing- but as time went on (without getting into detail), my voice slowly started to shut down, and the ability to be myself started to be more an idea than reality. By my mid-teens I was full-on depressed, disconnected, and using food to shove down any emotion that needed expressing. People close to me knew I loved to sing when I was younger, but if someone asked me to perform, my hands would shake, I’d get sweaty, my throat would tighten up- and intense fear would flood my system. I couldn’t even sing alone- I had such incredible fear and self-judgement that always kept me quiet. (Song: Coming Home)

By 23, it was apparent something wasn’t right. My weight had steadily progressed to 345 pounds (Song: Body.) I knew I needed a change. Through therapy, guidance, self-love, meditation, therapy, countless healers, and more therapy (lol), I was able to start exploring the sh*t that had kept me shut down, silent, and scared. A friend, Japa, heard me singing quietly and guided me into sharing my voice with her. Then, in a meditation led by Ali, I received my first “download”- which was that I had repressed my voice and emotions by pushing them down with food, and that in order to heal I had to sing (Song: Year of the Horse, You Have A Choice).

It’s been 5 years since then and I’ve not stopped singing.

Since then, I’ve been running my own business, ProcessSING, for 2 years, dedicated to helping people open their voices and explore the trauma behind being seen and heard. I now perform consistently with awesome musicians, and love the heck outta my life. Many of these songs were written to myself as prayers and reminders of how I *want* to be, and how through music have created the life I wish to live. Thank you for co-creating this live with me and walking on this path!

<3<3<3 Lauren Arrow
July 19, 2016 Lagunitas, California

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released August 8, 2016

It's Happening!

All songs written and performed by Lauren Arrow

Produced, Mixed and Recorded by Christopher Krotky
@ SoundWire Studios , Fairfax CA 2016

Mastered by Shelly Stephens at Chicago Mastering
Album Artwork by PaulLatinoArtAndDesign.com
Contact info: www.LaurenArrow.com /// www.ProcessSING.com

Musicians :
Lauren Arrow : Pianos, Vocals, Baritone Ukulele, Guitar, Hoop Drum
Christopher Krotky - Pianos, Keyboards , Percussion , Drums, Guitars, Basses, Strings
Michael Arrow: Drums on Body, Year of the Horse & Coming Home
Todd Boston: Mandolin, Guitars, Charango on Ashes
Ila Cantor: Upright Bass on Somehowww & Conspirator
Tiana Cicco: Vocals on Body, Year of the Horse, Unfolding, Coming Home
Alisa Healey: Harp and vocals on Unfolding
Annie May: Violin on Carrots & Peas, vocals on Ashes
Ali Maya: Vocals on Ashes
Phil Rodrigues - Horns on Body & You Have A Choice
Rick Roth: Organ on Body, Year of the Horse & Coming Home
Kim Sabina: Vocals on Body, Year of the Horse & Coming Home
Melita Silberstein: Vocals on Ashes
Gabriel Wheaton - Violin on You Have A Choice

GRATITUDES!

To my PARENTS! Holy shoot! Clearly I wouldn't be here without their productive and tireless teamwork in creating me, but I am forever grateful for their deep encouragement of my musical nature. Your belief and support created a strong foundation for my creative expression. To my mother: my personal cheerleader/momager: Thank you for the back scratches, the shoulder Kleenex, the late night texts about updating my website. Thank you for always believing in me. Pops- you give life to my music through your groovy drumbeats. You taught me about musical improvisation and finding the flow and jumping on the train. My little brother Sammy for being my first fan. I feel like you were the first one to be excited about my music and make me feel like my voice was beautiful and that I had something to share. Thanks for being the bestest little/big brother a girl could have! To my grandmothers: Sally for hearing me belt for the first time and getting her socks knocked off! Thank you for being the woman who kickstarted my Kickstarter. You, dear reader, are reading this page because of her contribution and support. And to Gramma Trude- my "80 years and over" manager who always gets me the hottest gigs at the JCC and retirement homes and 90th birthday parties.
To all relatives- Arrows, Sears, Seymours, Ginsbergs & more: I LOVE YOU!

Thank you to all my Kickstarter funders! In this case, I *literally* couldn’t have done it without you.

I have a lot of people to thank that have ushered me on this path of self discovery through singing. So many angels and guides and helpers I'd probably need a couple pages. Firstly: to Adva Mey, my first guide who could see my light even when I thought I had thoroughly extinguished it. Japa Kaur- oh my singing Goddess guide... I never never never sung in front of people until this gem. You were the safest person I had ever met and you breathed encouragement into me. To Belinda for your guidance, To Maria Owl Gutierrez who watered my little seedling and supported me to grow and flourish… And to Anton- During a routine what-the-hell-am-I-doing-with-my-life freakout, you simply asked me "well, what the hell DO you want to do?!" Those words were the exact thing I needed to hear to get my booty in gear and set the stage in motion for singing the song. And to Grandmother Aya and Ali: it was in your meditation circle that I first recognized the fear I had around singing in public and being heard by others, and I understood that in order to heal my body that I had spent so much time using food to repress emotions that I HAD to open my voice and sing and LET IT OUT! You told me that once I started doing that I would heal myself and then others. It's become true, and I haven't stopped singing from that point. To Bread & Roses, the most beautiful Nonprofit that brings hope, healing and live music to institutions throughout the Bay: Thank you! Your mission is my mission. Thank you for providing the spring-board for me to dive into my life.

To my sister Arielle who said "you should start Womens Singing Circles" and my brother Daniel who made it safe and fun to improvise... Elise- my bestie since I was 5; you know me better than anyone. Thanks for showing up with me in this life. Hill, thanks for holding me & your love and support for the two years it took to make the album. For naked Bolinas breakfasts and your muse-ical ways <3 To Cat Maness, my therapist for the last 5 years (holy shoot!) You have been with me along this path of unfolding and blossoming. And my whole community of support and love... Tiana, See, Alisa, Mel, David A & M, Nick, Colleinipants, Casa Olema, Rachel, Rodie, Jennaia, Iuybe, Rose, Forest. And my new family emerging: Ali, Robbie, Ila, Melita, Annie, Tara- I create the most beautiful heartwarming/soul filling music with you!!! Thank you for your blessSINGS!

Deeeeeep gratitude to Jennaia for creating HeartSpace where the singing groups were born- you were the sun that shown down on my little sproutling, guiding me towards the light & Sefora for creating Terras Temple to give the perfect Magickal space for singing... AND MY LADIES! My ExpressSING & ProcessSING ladies! My angels! Thank you for trusting me to help guide you into opening your voice. You help give my life purpose and meaning. And to Mr. Krotkey who worked with me tirelessly to create this album that was only supposed to take a couple months and took a couple years. You are a musical genius. Thank you for creating magic with me and being midwife to this album. You rock, rock.
 
And to my guides, God, Goddess, Soul, Self, Source, Ancestors, Angels, Muses & Mother Earth: Thank you for this breath that turns into song. Thank you for this heart that keeps breaking open more and more and more to let all your light in. Thank you for the tough love and the lessons. Thank you for letting me hear you and teaching me to listen. Thank you for this life. Ahoy.

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Track Name: Oh No!
Oh no! Oh no!

It’s happening.
The earth is...
Earth is....
Earth won’t stop spinning!

And I can’t hold on anymore.

You know- you KNOW!

You don’t have to fight.
Just let go
Let go
LET GO!
It’ll be alright.
Cause that’s what we’re all trying to learn.

Pin me to the ground til I get sober.
Pin me to the ground til it draws near…
Pin me to the ground it’s almost over-
Pin me to the ground til I get clear of all my


Fears!


My fears!

My fears!

My fears!

Pin me to the ground til I get sober.
Pin me to the ground til it draws near…
Pin me to the ground it’s almost over-
Pin me to the ground til I get clear of all my fears.
Track Name: Body
Body Will my body please forgive me?
Lord I pray oh Lord I pray.
If she’s damaged can I be mended?
Lord I pray oh Lord I pray.

Wearing baggage like a dress,
yeah this vice is obvious.
Oh Lord I pray.

Well- I see the way you’re looking at me.
Don’t judge me please! Don’t judge me.
Or the way you refuse to see me-
treat me like a human being!

Wearing baggage like a dress,
yeah this vice is obvious.
Lord I pray oh Lord I pray.

And all of the years of shame
turned into pounds of pain
accumulated in a whole lot to be gained.
I just wanted to hide-
keep it all inside-
but all that I took in
would never satisfy.

So: I’m gonna take all of the pain.
I will transform it.
I will create.
I’m gonna take all of the the shame.
I will transform it.
I will create.

A body of work
from heaven above
by life gifted to me
from the Source of Love.

Will my body please forgive me
for not loving all parts of me?
Track Name: You Have A Choice
You have a choice: to be free or to live in captivity.
The walls are in your mind-
Thanks for the reminder!



Feel your body in the breeze
The sunlight in the trees
Touches everything.


Whats stopping you
from being a vessel clear and true?
This is not a test
It is up to no one but yourself.
Track Name: Somehowww
I wrote a story and put you in it.
Boxed it up and then believed it.
It wasn’t fair for you no it wasn’t fair for you!
No it wasn’t fair for you no it wasn’t fair.

Fiction! A work of imagination!
And we believe it because we need
something to hold o-o-o—-onto.
But you? (You!) You’re not telling any stories.
You can see clearly; that’s what you dooooo.

It will all work out for us it will all work out for us
It will all work out for us it will all work out! (I said!) and…
It will all work out for us it will all work out for us


Somehow everything is perfect
Somehow everything is right
Somehow everything is perfect
Somehow everything is right

Somehow everything is perfect
Somehow everything is right
Open up those windows
And let in the light

x2

It will all work out for us it will all work out for us
It will all work out for us it will all work out! (I said!) and…


Somehow everything is perfect
Somehow everything is right
Open up those windows
And it’ll be alriiiiighhhhtt.
Track Name: Year Of The Horse
You are not like the other girls and you have got to stop comparing yourself to them! You are much more than you give credit for and it’s high time that you lead your own.

And they say 1) there’s no better time than the time that we got now. 2) put away all your beliefs but don’t let yourself drown. 3) there’s a difference between sinking or swimming. 4) It’ll all start to flow once you let it go.

Please forgive me
for deviating
from the path you have given me.
The original sin
is not listening
to the story that’s been written
from within!
So I am READY!
I hear you calling my name so clearly!
The answer has always been
coming from within.
Stop questioning
and start listening!!!
So please take me on this journey!
I will not hide anymore
from the life you have gifted me!
The story moves forward!
The journey’s not over!
The story moves forward!
The journey’s not over!

Girl: open up your heart. I’m ready to see the light. Let spirit soar within. I’m ready. It’ll be alright.

So open up your mouth and sing! Sing like no one is listening! You can have everything you dream- all you gotta do is believe!

You are not like the other girls and you have got to stop comparing yourself to them! You are much more than you give credit for and it’s high time that you lead your own.
Track Name: Carrots & Peas
We match up perfectly
Like a carrot to a pea
Like a boogers relation to a sneeze
Like stupid rhyming schemes to bad poetry
We always seem to match up perfectly.

I like you so much I’m writing you this song
Even though we haven’t met don’t get me wrong
I already know that we’ll get along
My net to catch you with will be this song.

I know you’re out there, when will you come find me?
I know you’re out there, when will you come find me (please).

I love the way you brush the hair off of my neck
And when we dance we always seem to forget
That we are two bodies instead of one
Like a little flower in the sun.

And when I’m sick you’ll bring me homemade chicken soup
Cause you know that I would do the same for you
We’ll help heal each others minds and hearts
And other random dangling body parts.

I know you’re out there, when will you come find me?
I know you’re out there, when will you come find me (please).

One day you’ll leave me like everybody do
Don’t worry babe this one’s not up to you
The leaves will fall as quickly as they grew
But not before their chance to fully bloom.

Your memory will slowly fade away
They say that it gets better every day
The silly things that only people say
When they’re trying to make you feel ok.

Our love has ended, but I will always hold you.
All leaves fall away, but not before their chance to fully bloom
Track Name: Conspirator
You played me like a puppet
With no strings attached
You told me to follow my heart
And then you pushed it back
You asked me for my everything
And then away you turned
And so my heart went up in flames
And I was left to burn…

The Universe conspires for our hearts to be broken
The Universe conspires for our hearts to break open. x2

And all the lies you fed me
Kept me satisfied
You kissed me with my eyes closed
While your eyes stayed open wide
And I could ever understand
Just what else I should do
You told me to follow my heart
So my heart followed you…

The Universe conspires for our hearts to be broken
The Universe conspires for our hearts to break open. x2

And in the morning I awoke
To see it all had died.
The stagnant feelings complicate
The life that life that lives inside.
I bet you can not realize
The gift that you gave me
By breaking the lock from my chest
You helped set my heart free…

The Universe conspires for our hearts to be broken
The Universe conspires for our hearts to break open. x2
Track Name: Queen B
If I could see the sea
She would be outstretched in front of me
With arms wide and glistening
If I could see the sea

and

If I could be a bee
with honey dripping sweet like candy
You know that I would not be
Anything but your

Queen B

And the sea she rises
As the bees goes flyzes
Over the ocean deep
And I hear her as she’s calling
As the sea breathes life into me
Oh my sweet! 
Oh my sweet! 
Oh my sweet honey beeeee

Set me free
Set me free
Honeybee!

Set me free!
Track Name: Unfolding
Far away, in inner space, she calls to me eternally: “Let her grow. Let her unfold. Let yourself be lost in the mystery, nothing to hold”. Please forgive me for forgetting your love & life are always with me (in me).
Track Name: Ashes
Burn me, oh fire queen!

Burn me til I am clean.
Cleansing what isn’t serving me
Burn me til I am freeeeeeee

And we turn to
Ashes! Ashes!

Falling to the ground.
Ashes! Ashes! Ashes!


And we turn to
Ashes! Ashes!

Falling to the ground.
Ashes! Ashes! Ashes!


As we all fall
Down

Ashes! Ashes! Ashes!

And after the fires had burned
Only my faith left unturned
The beauty of burning away
Is the magic that grows in its place
Knowing we light our own path
But in the end it always turns to
ash
(es)
Track Name: Coming Home
A long-lost survivor of her broken dreams
she was taught at an early age that nothing’s quite as it seems.
She searched so long and she travelled far
she finally realized you just aren't what you are.

When the darkness falls from the brightly lit streets
and the journey moves from your head to your feet
I know you’ll be coming home.

She thought that if she sealed up that nothing could get in
the darkness outside with the light trapped within.
But something just wasn’t right and she knew she had to mend
the barriers inside and was made whole again.

When the darkness falls from the brightly lit streets,
and the journey moves from your head to your feet
I know you’ll be coming home.